Archive for July, 2007

When I was in fourth grade, I was part of a youth orchestra in Boston, and my conductor jokingly told us about how Beethoven, upon dying, placed some sort of curse on future composers such that they could not outdo him in symphonic works. The story continues with Mahler, always conscious of Beethoven’s shadow and fearful, one day suddenly jumping the gun and trying to cheat Death by writing a tenth symphony. (He of course died after only sketching out ideas for that work.)

But it’s not just Mahler. Schubert wrote nine as well, never finishing the appropriately titled “Unfinished Symphony” (although he had ample time to do so – the unfinished one in question is #8). Bruckner as well died without finishing the final movement of his ninth symphony (which I am currently listening to). There are, of course, many composers who never reach 9 at all – Brahms had 4, Rachmaninoff had 3, and Tchaikovsky had 6. But the latter two weren’t associated with Germany at all, and one would suppose that Beethoven’s ghost stuck around on familiar territory.

It could really just be coincidence about those 9’s. Because symphonies became longer and increasingly complicated as the 19th century chugged along, it would take several years to write each one, and there are only so many productive years that a composer has. That would explain the rapid drop from Haydn and Mozart, who wrote 104(+4) and 41 symphonies, respectively.

Honestly, I would be happy if I could complete just one full symphony in my lifetime … and I’d die happily if I could write nine!

Iraq is a mess.  A friend once told me he may have begun to support the war, a week after the military operations began, because of its apparent speed and success — but I was much more weary and skeptical.  It is one thing to destroy a country, and another thing entirely to create one.

But I feel that at least one small step has been made forward … .  It is of no surprise that sports can bring together people of a city, people of a country, people of a country who have migrated to other parts of the world.  Victory in a match is one of the few treasures that can be vicariously taken on by each and every citizen and yet still not diminish in magnitude.  And that’s why I think it’s mighty good news that Iraq has pulled off the Asian Cup championship [http://www.nytimes.com/2007/07/30/world/middleeast/30iraq.html?_r=1&ref=sports&oref=slogin] in soccer with a team that bridges sects and regions.

Of course, I’m still a skeptic, and the recent violence associated with the games proves that there’s no such thing as a miracle happy ending.

Overheard at MGH ..

Worker #1: “I need those extra 10 grams of sugar! So that I can go *fast*, fast like … DSL Comcast!” *Pretends to be high-speed packets chugging along in a cable, making lots of noise*
Worker #2: “DSL .. Comcast?? Man, you got issues!”

I never thought about non-lab solutions this way, but grape juice is about 1.03 M sugar, and seawater is ~0.88 M salt.  I mean, can you imagine how big a lump 44 grams of sugar per 8 ounces is?

I drew the main cast for my fall comic of no current title. Of course, designs are subject to change!  The farthest char to the right is “Kiyori.”  If she’s cut off on your browser, then just go to the link instead: http://www.aquamarinestardust.net/images/Fall_cast_s.jpg

… lab is pretty f’ing depressing these days.  Honestly I just want to be doing experiments that are wholly my own.  I guess that shall begin next Monday.

Oh well, at least I was able to doodle these eyes while waiting for the microscope to free up.

I didn’t do too badly, did I?

The ants slink out of a saw-cut hole on the left-hand side of a wooden plank. The hole isn’t even round – its edges are jagged and unkempt, the jutting splinters like the bristles of a two-day beard. The insects stumble at first, their single-file line wavering hesitantly before asymptotically aligning along a single mahogany-brown grain-line in the wood.

They march, antennae-to-abdomen, tapping so softly on the wood that they can’t be heard without pressing one’s ear right up against the plank itself. Their rhythm is so steady, their speed so fixed, that they look like a thin stream of water dribbling down the side of a cup, writhing with childish abandon at first, then gradually falling into the well-trodden trails down the side, marked by the dotted speckles from streams of yesteryear.

At the end of the ants’ path, they come upon another hole, lined on its sloping rims with a slick substance. One by one, the ants fall into the hole, the next one in line failing to notice the bottomless abyss until the previous ant tumbles away, revealing all too late the gaping destiny. Frantically, for a moment, the ant fights the well, although all six of its legs are already so far from the sane wood that they only grasp air. The ant behind is amused at this little jig – it looks funky. Catchy, almost. It makes no move to reclaim its dancing comrade.

In the midst of this juxtaposition of amusement and tragedy lies enlightenment.

I had the privilege of meeting a most singular, odd, and unexpectedly charismatic young fellow at MOP (the Math Olympiad Summer Program, back when the acronym change was still contested by us MOPpers).  He was endlessly hilarious – if ya don’t believe me, just lookup some of his quotes in this compendium [http://moppers.kaseorg.com/02/quotes/], painstakingly collected by fellow North Carolinian, Anders.

From the catchy Star Wars-inspired e-mail address to his signature hair, eyes, and gait, he was a person you just couldn’t forget.  I can’t say I was surprised when I later saw him at MIT.  I wasn’t surprised when I saw his name on the list of TAs for 18.02.  He was always so open, so welcoming, so gentle-hearted.  It pains me to know that he left this world so early and so suddenly.

You will never be forgotten, James.  May you rest in peace.

[http://www.dailyherald.com/story.asp?id=334254]

[http://web.mit.edu/newsoffice/2007/obit-albrecht-0724.html]

At one point today, a graduate student from next door dropped by and handed a silver coin into James’s palm.

“A quarter?” I asked.

“No, a nickel.”

“You asked her to pay you back a nickel?!” I cried, incredulous.

But indeed, he had not.  It seemed all foolishness at first, but then I realized how much she reminded me of myself.  It is not the amount that matters at all – $10 or a five cents, all the same.  There is the unselfish component of desiring justice and to be trustworthy to friends.  But there is also a selfish component, the need to rid oneself of the dirtiness of indebtedness, the need to be independent and free.  It’s something that’s very hard to explain, but I feel that it is analogous to philosophical independence: the thinker who is unbridled by the tugging ropes of borrowed thought.  There is a certain type of thinker who wishes to sit cross-legged in the wilderness and arrive at conclusions through that kind of outward introspection, rather than reading book upon book on the subject or learning from this master or that.  Even if he or she arrives at the same conclusion as everyone else, nevertheless the independence of thought makes all the difference.

I think that when you meet me, you probably don’t feel that I am a very independent person at all.   But from within me, the hardest lesson has been to try to learn to be dependent on others.  Even then, I find myself taking on many roles and participating in many clubs and hobbies because I want to be able to do it myself, to matter as an individual and to have the freedom to feel all of these things firsthand, rather than relying on others to do the job for me.

Woke up lousily after not sleeping much; slow computers set me back awhile too.  Everything seemed to be just going so slowly, and I ended up fuming out of control because it was as though the world moved slowly just to grate on my nerves.

Got a new task, to work on delegating new lounge space for BE and BMES.  Prepared for experiment, but shipment never arrived so I couldn’t do anything.  Spent afternoon compiling info on med schools and made most decisions as to where and which programs to apply to.  Got  an e-mail saying BMES was in debt (= accounts will be frozen), even though we haven’t touched our bank account for months now.  I’m also missing some paychecks.
Came back, room smells weird, clothes still not folded.  Have to head out soon to help cook.  Just wanna get back over here and sleep and clean and edit my essays.  I desperately want to edit the paper, too, but I guess that’ll wait … til I get another e-mail snapping at my untimeliness.

Oh, Bruckner 6, thank God I got you onto my iPod.